THE DAY GOD TOOK YOU HOME
"In tears we saw you sinking, and watched you pass away. Our hearts were almost broken, we wanted you to stay.
But when we saw you sleeping, so peaceful, free from pain, how could we wish you back with us, to suffer that again?
It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone, for part of us went with you, the day God took you home."
Please don’t tell me you know how I feel, unless you have lost your child too. Please don’t tell me my broken heart will heal, because that is just not true. Please don’t tell me my son is in a better place, though it is true, I want him here with me. Don’t tell me someday I’ll hear his voice, see his face, beyond today I cannot see. Don’t tell me it is time to move on, because I can not. Don't tell me to face the fact he is gone, because denial is something I can't stop. Don’t tell me to be thankful for the time I had, because I wanted more. Don’t tell me when I am my old self you will be glad, I’ll never be as I was before. What you can tell me is you will be here for me, that you will listen when I talk of my child. You can share with me my precious memories, you can even cry with me for a while. And please don’t hesitate to say his name, because it is something I long to hear everyday. Please realize that I can never be the same. But if you stand by me, you may like the new person I become someday.
Austin Geoffrey Kallenberger was called to the Lord on Wednesday, July 18th. He passed in the loving arms of his parents in his home. Austin was born on April 11, 2012 in Bakersfield at 6 lbs., 14 ounces, 21 inches long. He had a tough three months here on earth as he struggled for the first two in the Cedars-Sinai NICU. He was loved by many nurses and doctors there. On June 20th, Austin left the NICU and headed home in an ambulance. Austin was surrounded by family and friends and got to experience many things he couldn’t have while in the NICU. He went swimming, felt grass, sat in a swing, listened to the commotion of his sisters, watched fireworks on the 4th, and even got to attend his sister’s 2nd birthday party. Even though his time here was short he made a lasting impression on so many people. He was loved by all who met him, and will be greatly missed. Austin is survived by his parents, Geoff and Stephanie Kallenberger; three sisters, Avery, Alexis and Rylie; grandparents, Ross and Loraine Kallenberger, and Mike and Wendy Sides; great-grandparents, Bert and June Sides; aunts and uncles, Bobby and Jennifer Blackmon, Bryan and Katie Timmons, and Brian and Jennifer Lininger; cousins, Tori, Jacob and Josh Blackmon, Jordyn and Tawny Timmons, and Zach and Nathan Lininger. The Family wants to thank everyone at Cedars- Sinai NICU for the loving care they provided their son, the Olive Knolls MOPS ladies for all the love and support, and Valley Baptist Church. In lieu of flowers we would be pleased to have you make donations to Cedars-Sinai Medical Center's Good Beginnings to help families being discharged with special needs infants, and to support other grieving parents at: 8700 Beverly Boulevard, Room 4311, Los Angeles, CA 90048. Memorial services will be held July 25th at 2:00pm at Valley Baptist Church, with a graveside service following at Hillcrest Mortuary.
We made this page to share our son and his amazing short life. We also made this page so other parents who are looking for a diagnosis for their child might find similar symptoms and find help and hope in our story. We believe we can honor the life and memory of Austin the best and make the most significant impact by providing help, knowledge and support to other families in similar circumstances.